Tuesday, March 31, 2009

A Day Without Destiny


A Day Without Destiny

The day was extra shiny and my heart was speculating, "Why is it such a good day?" But any way I was happy for whatever was going on. I looked outside and was in reminiscence of my home and once again remembered my mom. Secretly I was making a vow to my mom to make it the highest score this time again. 

Suddenly I was awakened up by a long "tring". Then I realized that the time was over and the teacher was collecting papers back. I submitted my papers and hurried to hostel to change because it was Friday, the day to go home from this awful jail. Suddenly someone shouted saying, “Come on do it fast your mother is waiting outside.”And outside was my mom waiting for me. I was so desperate to have the warmth of her hug and so as she hugged me I was in tears.

It was one of our longest drive where we mom and daughter could share our ups and downs. As we reached home we would both promise each other not to repeat our mistakes.

My dad would always be there when I stepped out of the car to give me a warm welcome hug. I hugged him and he smiled as always, just for formality. I don’t know why he used to do so. The only thing I knew was that he felt insecure but again I didn't have the answer of "why". We all went in and had dinner for it was too late when we arrived home. I went to my bed room and I don’t remember when I fell asleep. Next morning as a surprise my dad called me to have that day's breakfast with him. I was astonished and glad at the same time that whatever may be the reason I got a chance to have breakfast with my dad.

While for lunch I saw my dad in the dining table, I was amazed again because it was never before we had lunch together. We all had our lunch together for the first time. Dad said that it was ok if I did not return hostel that day. Now it was time to go out for the most fascinating thing in my life, yes shopping. My mom didn’t say no to anything that day.

I in the next room was busy counting and packing my bunch of chocolates and new dresses. Suddenly my dad came to me and said he had a surprise gift for me. I asked him what was it and he showed me both of his hands. In his one hand he had my dream, the thing which I always imagined to have one "a DSLR Camera"! I was dazed that it was in his hand and it was for me! I took it immediately and asked him" is it really for me?" with tears in my eyes which were just holding themselves back. But now when I looked at his other hand it was a document there. I asked him what it was but he said me to look it myself and nothing more. I took that document from his hand, opened it and read. It was their divorce document. The tears that were somehow holding themselves from falling couldn’t be controlled and it poured all out. I looked up at my dad and asked him "why?" He just answered nothing and my parents extended both of their arms towards me and said to catch ones hand that I liked to stay with.

I looked at mom with so many questions in my eyes. My mom just closed her eyes, which clearly was stating that she was regretting for whatever was happening that time. Then again I looked at my dad's face and saw that he had already formed a few lines of wrinkles, that he was getting older each day and I was the only one left in his life, the only reason to smile.

It was time for me to decide whose arms to fall in. I looked at my mom and caught her hand. We left my dad alone. I and my mom went far far away from him. I still cannot figure out whom I loved the most that time, why I caught mom's hand and not dad's. May be I loved him the most and caught her hand because I didn’t want to put him in trepidation of my normal upbringing for the rest of his and my life. Or maybe I loved her the most and caught her hand because I didn’t want her to regret about whatever had happened for the rest of her life.

Nah, just messing around with you guys, my parents are still intact with the auspicious bond of marriage and are living happily ever after. Got emotion huh! Happy April Fool.

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